So many layers of emotion with the memory of this photo. The fact that this three day weekend has been hellish, that I’ve been struggling physically and wish I could have been drinking the entire time so I enjoyed my kids and didn’t want to run away, that I was a better mother who was active and enjoyed the heat, that my husband didn’t find ways to avoid being a parent or make me feel guilty for wanting him to be involved or pleasant…This was supposed to be one of the last times I nursed Owen but he fell asleep on the bottle before I could because I was busy cleaning… At least he’s asleep.